Emotional Eater

As many others out there, when I am upset, I eat. It is a terrible problem, because the more I eat the more unhappy I am, then I create this crazy cycle of eating more, and more, and more...

The last couple of weeks have been extremely stressful for me. Not because of the stress of school and graduating, but my because of way more important things. My father was diagnosed with Hodgkin's Disease ( a form of cancer of the lymph nodes) in 2002. He was treated with chemotherapy for a year, and was put into remission. Since then he was forced to retired due to his health, but he was close to retirement so it wasn't that bad. Last couple of times that I went home I could sense that something was wrong. My father's behavior overall had changed. He can barely breath, he is on oxygen, and it hard for him to walk anywhere. I knew that things weren't good, but I didn't want to say anything without reason from doctors. I found out this week that the cancer has returned in a form of a tumor on his other lung. They can treat it, but it is cancer. I have been mentally prepared for the worse for years, but facing reality and death isn't always easy. There are no guarantees in life.

Financial stress is another things that always seems to plague me. Graduating is great, and knowing that I am going to have a job in the fall is even better, but the transition from student loans to no paycheck is a killer on my wallet. I just keep praying that I can make it through the summer.

I know that I talk a lot about my weight and weight loss, and how important that it is to me. But I do want you to understand that there are things that are way more important that self image or even health. I try to make my friends and family a priority at all times, and I hope you all do the same.

I had said earlier that I have only lost 1 lb in the last couple weeks, and it is extremely discouraging. In America we want instant gratification, which means a slow weight loss isn't something that I really enjoy. I am not patient about anything in life, and I would love to spend my summer in a two-piece bikini, but realistically that is not gonna happen. Sometimes I get ahead of myself, and I set unrealistic goals, which in return just lead to disappointment. I suggest that you set small goals that you know you can reach, and if you reach them too easily, start setting tougher ones.

I need to get into beast mode asap, because I want to be healthier and I want to be slimmer before I start my new job. Hopefully with the support of all of my readers, and some motivation I will reach my goals!

Until we meet again,

Tiffany